21 and Sober

dedicated to:
Aaron Jeffrey Krick

you told me once that humans were "irrational creatures". I don't exactly remember the context but it stood out in my mind because i had a true irrational experience today. A girl in my imc class was sleeping next to me. Like seriously....on the verge of snoring and we had about three minutes left of class. So being the good person that i try to be i attempted to wake her up thinking that i might get an "omg thanks", no such luck. She didnt wake up and then when i told the teacher on the way out that she might want to wake her up she followed me down the hall to ask me why i didn't mind my own business. Now my initial reaction was to smack her upside her head and simply say you're welcome but i just said to her that i had tried to wake her up and that i didn't mean to piss her off. It seems like everyone i that class has a target set around my face and i am not exactly sure why that is but i dont feel the greatest about it. Then i remembered what my brother said and it made me feel a little bit better.....not much but i guess enough to make a difference. People in general don't stop to ask questions and examine situations before flipping out and using obscenities like "why the fuck did you tell her that i was sleeping" i think she would have figured it out on her own eventually.
But people don't make sense to me and no matter how nice of a thing i try to do, i get bit in the ass for it. So don't take it personal but i am not doing any favors for people who sit next to me, copy my paper and sell cigs to each other before lunch.
So thank you Aaron for some insight into a totally off topic that just so happened to relate to my life today. <3

peculiar specimen

You intrigue me to say the least. Watching you go throughout your day makes me almost want to cry for you. I don't know why i feel this way about you but i think it might help me get to know and be friends with you better. You express yourself in the only way you know how, and try to share this with others but at the same time you stay detached and almost lost. You only sing in church when you realize that you are the only one not and that god might look at you in question. You are tragically funny but don't laugh at yourself because you secretly think people are laughing at you not with you. You put others before yourself but still care about your own well being a great deal. You care more about friends than relationships but tragically wish you could find the one you were meant to find. You think about the opposite sex more than you should but don't watch inappropriate shows because that is exactly not how you want people to think of you, but don't plan to do much about it. You like to put things more into a destiny perspective because you aren't what you would call lazy just wants things to happen rather than chase after them. I wish i could be more like you in more than a few ways. but i think that i am too fragile to live the way you do. so for now you are a great role model and hopefully a good friend.

Spruce Not Spruce Lake

We all wondered if High Point Camp would live up to the standards we had of Spruce Lake. But to be honest i loved High Point Camp as much and or more than Spruce Lake. The cinnamon buns could use some work but nit-picking is being a little bit too critical. Some of it was hard to do for me, trying to be open to everyone and try to be nice to a certain 13 year old who thought she was the hottest shit to hit youth group. All of the poeple there were amazing and even though there weren't as many people as last year i wouldn't trade the group that went for anything. But all in all i had a great time and i would go back to high point in a heartbeat.

Can't wait for our kent rematch and
thank you for welcoming me kerry!
i hope this will be funnn